Say Something (I'm Giving up on you)

So much has gone on in my life, I know a lot of people ask the questions why I let trivial things bother me..  I mean I should be the one that should be able to hold things together.  This is not my life anymore, so many things have hit me in the past and I was able to get up and keep running and it would be good for me for a couple of weeks or months.  

I am sure this time I have actually hit ROCK BOTTOM!!  This girl right here has decided that I am going to give up on trusting, attempting to love and also listening to myself when I keep on telling myself  things will eventually work out.  I don't want to do this anymore.

Work, Home, Shower, Shave & Bed, These are going to be a few of my favorite things for awhile, I am not going to open my heart for awhile.  I sit on the bed and think of how I wanted my life to work out and all of a sudden it is like I have woken from a nightmare but yet I am still awake.  I am living this life and I feel I am going nowhere.  I always think at any given time I am going to step into my moms house and see my daddy.. Man do I miss Solomon Kohen or as a lot of his friends called Sol.  I am laughing for the first time in a couple of days just by calling him Sol!!  I miss my daddy so fucking much.. I love my mom but I was a true blue daddies girl and I want him back.  I am truly at this time Trying to "Say Something"(I'm giving up on you)  aka Myself!!!